An eventful morning

The plan: Wake up at 6 and head to the gym.


What happened: Woke up at 6, stuck one foot out of the blanket. Shivered. Brought foot back into blanket and close toward body. Switched off snooze alarm and went back to bed





The plan: Was then supposed to wake up at 730. Get dressed have breakfast, play with Cas (abit) then head to school.
What happened: Woke up at 815! Bathed like Curry in a hurry, wolfed down a Banana and shot out of the house like a speed of light for my 9am class.
In the midst of all tt hurrying, it looked like war of the worlds had once again dawned upon us. Now, this is my idea of War of the worlds

No. No its not an actual alien invasion. Take me in your flying saucer, remove my brains and put my back to earth so i may sing "Rasa sayang". okay, In lame man terms its known as a thunderstorm. Because, I was feeling all "1oo-good-deeds-for-andy-macdought-" I decided to stop by the sports center to pass Eandzy an umbrella (incase it rained) cos 1) she's not feeling well and has been having headaches, since i don't know when (exactly). 2) Because of 1) she's defeniately susceptible to a cold. 3) Exams are coming and events 1) and 2) should be best avoided at all cost.

Got to the sports center at 9.

me: Hey~ Sorry to bother, is Andrea in? Andrea, my sister?

Alex and Ben look at each other

Ben says, "Nah I didn't see her come in"

Alex: "yeah, Me too"

Me: ?? mm.. mind if i popped in to check? So i "popped in" and she wasn't there; figured she might be changing so i checked the toilet, she wasn't in there too... Popped back out, (said goodbye) and decided i'd just head to class. But then, Spot on! Found her walking on the bridge near simpson lawn and started running after her like a mad monkey high on sugar with a loose nappy. It was pointless shouting her name cos she had clouds (earphones) in her ears. Finally caught up with her at the SS building.

Andrea: Hey~ its you, i thought a duck was chasing me...

A duck? She thought i was a duck. lol. Luckily she didn't start running, if not i was so gonna throw my slipper at her and because i know i'm such a lousy aim, i'll most prob end up slipperless or worse, step in duck poop while walking to retrieve my slippers.

Reached class bout 910 and man! was i sweating... I was sweating so much I could feel the sweat trickling down my back and my pull-over sticking to me. It was so painfully uncomfortable.

The lecture ended and i headed home for my usual 2hr monday break. Had my yumo yogurt with ricotta cheese, berries and cornflakes. Decided tt i'd research a little on Swine flu so i might add it to my antibody-antigen poster. But the words started to get all fuzzy and i was going cross-eyed, so i decided to take my mind off work for a second and read fairytales from the brothers grimm. Ended up falling asleep and missing my Nutrition lecture (again, bet i didn't miss much, maybe just his face n his mouth opening and closing like a venous flytrap). Woke up to Cas, making romantic sleep sounds in my ear. Headed back to school for another lecture, met up with Andrea and we skipped hand in hand home, tra-la-la-ing...

Okay, now i'm completely exhausted.

But there is more work to be done...

Urrgh...
Why does my Occupation have to say: STUDENT. A STUDents job is to STUDy. So STUpid... After all this studying i had better be earning lots of money, so i can pay for my eyesight, brain, sore fingers and butt for sitting, researching, thinking and typing all day....

Till next time

I don't know why i've got a phone. Its under used cos it never goes on field trips with me, even when its out, it just sits in my bag all day long. I rechage it every month cos thats how turbo charge works, i don't send messages cos its damn cold and i hate my fingers feeling all cold and numb.



I've got this new super craze for apple turn over with freshcream from Northland. Its just divine. Its like apple pie but with cream. So delightful. -okay, no pictures cos i don't want you'll to lau nua, mess up your key boards and die of electrocution. haha.


Went to Northland with my parents this afternoon, went baby clothes hunting. It was kinda odd, cos normally I'd never step into a baby apparatus section. Infact my parents have never made me walk through the baby dpt. okay, moving on, the Ps were deciding between a lime green and a navy blue jumper for the kid. They bought the nice navy blue jumper in the end cos dada felt the lime-green would look super err.. hippie on the kid. Oh! Momma bought full length leggings for herself, she wants to wear em with her skirts and dresses. hah. Can't thow in anything smart there cos i use tights under my pants/jeans. lol. now, who's weirder? hah

Got dark Brown hair now.... =)

So close..

I know you can't see it but i'm actually grinning from ear to ear. Eandz bought me The Brothers Grimm and Han Christain Andersons complete fairytales. So sweet... Can't wait to feast my eyes on the words and devour the books. I've also just finished watching Season 4 of Supernatural, now all i can do is speculate bout season 5 and watch season 1,2,3and4 over and over and over again...

Went for a talk and as much as the man was talking to himself, from the parts tt i managed to starin my ears and absorb it was it kinda made sense tt we might have originated from the sea, hence we have this tendency to consume NaCl, to make up for its depletion in our systems and ensure complete function of our nervous system. Influx of Na+ into the cell causes depolarization and K+ out of causes repolarizartion, the whole action potential sequence. How did we start of with having and needing Na+, in the first place.
I also learnt tt Olive oil, contains oleocanthal that is responsible for the slightly peppery "bite" you feel in your throat when olive oil is consumed. Apparently, 3 tablespoons of oilve oil a day have the same effect as 1/10 of the adult ibuprofen (which is something like aspirin).
And there was more stuff bout Caffine, Salt, Sugar and sensitive, normal and unsensitive people. Like eg. how much can you decrease the level of sugar in it before ppl start to feel the difference. Also about how caffine perks you up and when you don't have it you're all restless and unsettled till you're hit with another dose of caffine.
and i'd bet you'll already knew that...

Okay, moving on...

I found this hanging in the Mac Lab. This is a Heart and the long stuff you see tt look like noodles are heart worms and this is very common in Dogs.
Dear all, if you belive tt your beloved pet has this, please get your doggies checked and treated. Immediately!

Man. this picture makes my chest feel all funny...

Thinking twice?

Dum di dum dum...

My first weekend free after, weeks of never-ending tests-and essays. Urrgh.. short-lived gonna have to start up again, got a presentation, 2 essays and 2more tests (coming soon).
Cliffnotes:
-Hormones haven't caught up with feelings.
-Eandz and i realised we cannot be attached at the same time.
-Got followed by another dodgey man (and this time i wasn't smiling or anything), this dumbass thought singapore was in China and Malaysia was in Indonesia... How thick can you get? *Bus 789....
-Got a new name! and its... Belinda. Nah, its not self-thought-self-given this time. He's this dude that always helps me carry down the 20k weights from the barbell cos i think he thinks i can't handle it. Well, lots of help and soon you'll have to exchange names right? so told the guy my name. He must be having an early onset of Alzeimers cos he started calling me belinda 2days later, eventhough he repeated, Ki-mm-ber-ly...oh well..
-Watched Angels and Demons last friday! I'm so contented.
-Bought more black Jewels books
-Finished reading Alice adventures in Wonderland.
-Found the Brothers Grimm, complete fairytales (in hard cover), i want!
-Finished the birthday card. Just need to write in it now. muse, some inspiration please
-35kg for bar bell squats! 25kg for deadlifts. Woohoo... 4kg for my rotated cuff exercise, my lightest so far, cos its my latest addition for the clicking. Ooh, clicking why won't you go away
-Found new love for Thursday afternoons, body sculpt class. <3>
-oh! hah. This is gross but, Casper peed on my lab coat. I think it was an accident. See he likes to sleep in my bag these days and i norm leave my lab coat there cos tts the bag i usually take out on wed. hah. so packed up went to school, Lab time, took it out. Found special gift... So I had to wash it. (Borrowed lab coat, didn't put it on of course, yuck!) The week after, my berry-yogurt lunch spilled all over and guess who saved my books! Bingo! the lap coat! you'd think "oh yeah! cool, saved!" But no! My lap coat soaked up all the berry juice at my butt part. It looked like I forgot to wear sanitary napkin! Urrgh.... God must really hate me, i had to walk around for 3hours like tt, in the lab... damn it!
-Heart worms look like Noodles... okay, nuff said. Officiallly grossed out...
-I think I'm...
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Have to stop thinking bout it, maybe it'll go away.

Blue

Curious Heartache...

Run of bad luck

Been so busy of late. Essays due, human phisiology (muscle contraction) and biochem (report on an experiment i carried out based on effect of pH on enzyme activity). Thumb drive mucked up, lost all my work 2days before the human physiology one was due, had to retype the whole thing including the biochem report. 3 days before the biochem report was due i lost all the work again this time my thum drive completely K.O.ed on me. Sat alone in middle of the night till the wee hours of the morning crying and retyping. So sick of computers, so sick of essays. And cos i've spent so many nights up doing work my immune system has hit rock bottom too. So yeah, i'm sick of being sick too.

Bout 2 weeks ago, while coming back from renting dvds at Bundoora square, i bumped the car infront. So the car had to go in for servicing. Apparently the damaged i chocked up on the dudes car with my hardy sportivo came up to 3thousand bucks. And unlike what you might be thinking, No, i wasn't speeding we'd just cleared a traffic light i'd just begun accelerating i was at least 1 n 1/2 car lengths behind when the dude infront jammed his breaks, so i jammed mine too but, i think cos the ground was wet and the tires were old n hard, so they didn't grip the road properly, the break made a "Gerk-gerk-gerk" kinda sound (look at me make excuses for myself) and the nxt moment, Bang. Since that night, everynight before i close my eyes i think about the last 5seconds before i hit the car and i think about what i could have done to prevent it and the only solid solution seems to point to me not driving. But tts not really an option, got to get back in the car someday. Well, with a dad like mine, already did anyway.

Just yesterday, i got stopped by this dude in a Hilux, well, he wasn't really a young hot dude, he looked like one of those older pornstar men. haha. I don't know how else to describe how he looked. So i'm walking home along cash street in one of my gay ole' moods cos i just finished my human physiology and biochem test. I don't use Dune anymore cos i met 2 cats and they always thats where we meet for some afternoon lovin. lol.
Okay, back to dodgy man in hilux.
He pulls up his car and asks me if i knew if or not there were any super markets near by.
Answered: Yeah, just go straight, cross road turn left, at the next cross road turn right.
Then he went on to say, "you pretty yeah. I follow you, from main street, thought maybe if i luckee you give me name, number n have dinner with me tonight."
Thoughts running through my mind: 1) Oh no, you see laa you so happy, all the dodgy ppl come out to play, sulk more. 2) Why didn't i go to the psych lab with andrea. Damn it! 3) Err.. what to say uh....
So i gave my sweetest smile and said: " My name is Brooke and, you are? (and right now i can't remember his name) so anyway he gave me his name and asked for my number and i said, "I'm just here visiting my grandma,(so little red riding hood right? haha, i always use this dumb line on nosey taxi drivers in sg) gonna go home in 2 weeks, don't have a cell phone" So he gives me his calling card and asks if or not we can have dinner and i said no, got plans for tonight already. He was super persistant then what about later, in the night? .... (obviously not....) Then he kept asking me to get in his car cos he wanted to give me a lift to "grannies place", even opened the door for me. * damn scared wei, cash street is f*ing quiet and cars seldom come by let alone people. The best line i came up with was, "its a beautiful day, i'd like to walk, thanks.... "-o- luckily, he drove off..
oh! hahaha.. He also asked me from where i come from and i said, Laos. and he asked, "where that was? (and at tt point in time, my mind went blank)." So i said its an island inbetween madagascar and philipines... then the best part was him saying, "oh! ya ya! I heard of tt place, very beautiful...."
hahhahahahha... Idiot....

Mae and Robin just had a son, his name is Jacob James Lee Ming Liang. lol. you should have seen the look on andrea and my face when mom told us they named the kid, Jacob-James. lol. Jacob from the bible, i get (they're a very pious family), but where does james come from? lol. I don't like kids but just to be nice and supportive, might go see them tmr or something. hah. I look forward to the 1 month party, food, glorious, food!

Bought alot of new books to read for the winter. Nothing better than, Hot coca, a warm blanket and a good book to pass the day.

Of late, i've been thinking bout a particular someone a little more than i should. Maybe, its cos his birthday's coming up or perhaps i feel like we should still be talking cos of what i felt when we first met and tt was me wanting to have him in my life and maybe, i still do (not as anything special, just his mere presence)... Whoever said tt the things we want most in life, we never seem to get. Feels quite true at this point in time.
First things first, gotta get through the pride threshold.
Perhaps i'd say, oportunities are rare cos you're there and i'm here and i realsed i must be vigilant. I see enchantment in the world when i'm with you and even if it was a brief period of time, i've never felt more alive than being with you. If being with you for that short period of time could make me feel that way, i can only imagine how my life with you in it everday would be like. But in the end, Summer days are all tt you are cos you aren't here right now and i'll never tell you these things...


I think my life is pretty colourful this way.


This is random, but, I miss my red hair...

Seriously...?

This is the 5 year plan.

-Date a guai low. Cos tts the only ethnic group i haven't gone through.
Gonna date the following Alphabets, C,D,E,F,G,H,N,O,P,Q,T,U,W,X,Y,Z.
-Be involved in a job that i'm passionate about.
-See Australia, must go to Faraway Downs in Darwin and herd big fat cheeky bulls. hehee..
-Compete in a marathon.
-Must get andrea to donate blood. Talking about blood donation, so depressing. My blood started clotting and they had to stop at 170ml just after 7mins. Apparently there was supposed to be 500ml in the bag at the end of 10mins. This means that my vein is small and i can't donate plasma or platelets.
-Must attend at least one eagle bar night.
- Learn to kick box and dive.
- Get my pt cert.
- hunt down #7 Children of Fear by R. L. Stine and Trisha Bakers, Crimson Night and Crimson Shadows
- Face fear of house lizards by any means necessary.
- Not be involved in any car accidents

Bus 789

All in all, I had a great weekend, it must have been so great tt god has decided to make me miserable. I want to commit suicide, I'm depressed cos i'm michael jackson-ing out, my baby is still growing and i think i have developed an allergy to meat and to top up to the mess i'm in, i haven't studied or finished my report which is due at 12pm this friday.

So this is what i've been up to,
1) Borrowed Prison break S3 and watched it non-stop cos it was a 3night thing.
2) Started my new gym prog, i was doing max reps with the heaviest weights and my muscles don't hurt one bit. So dissapointed.
3) Spent lots of time talking to andrea about andrew and when we weren't talking i was looking out for him, for her and thinking about dumb questions to ask him so tt she can look at his nice straight white little teeth (with her mouth hanging half open. hahh...). Asked him if or nt i was doing my dead lifts right and he ended up increasing my weights. -o-
4) Stayed with Shireen on Friday. =)
Had dessert of Lemon Brulee and chocolate caramel for lunch on Lygon street.
Bumped into Phil!
Walked around the dirt cheap book shop. New favourtite place. Bought 3 books, Disney Princesses, Gulivers Travels and the Semmilion. I'm looking for the Grimm Brothers fairytales.
Headed back to shireens place, did Girly things, dressed prettily and headed to Crown for dinner. (Won't tell you where, cos you might go there, dn wanna spoil the fun)
Met a dodgey man with stale ciggarate and wine breath. Who apparently gave us our table cos we were happy looking. (Note to self: should sulk and look grumpy from now on) My dear Malaysian friends, where is bar 7,8,9 and Q bar tts opposite KLCC? Please do not go there cos tts his favourite hang out, if you go there and u happen to meet a man who says he likes your smile and offers to give you wine, on him, start sulking immediately after you have drank the wine and walk out. Do not be nice and obliging if he asks to join you and i repeat, do not engage in conversation...
Bus 7? 8, e-i-g-h-t, 9? *Scratches head.
Then it came to a topic of animals have seasonal sex while humans do it anytime. (*Err... hmm... I don't do it in summer cos its damn hot and winter cos its damn cold. lol. Does tt make me seasonal.....?) and! and! he loves safaries cos he likes the magestic elephants and lives with his sister who washes his clothes and cooks his meals. The conclusion of the night was tt he was attracted to andrea cos she was quiet, young and vulnerable. haha. ee..
Got the the train station and we meet another dodgey man, he roughly taps my arm and says, "ton-berry? ton-berry?" points to a paper tt says "Thornbury". So i told him to come with me cos we were taking the same train. The he annoyingly keeps asking "what time train go?" Anyway, the dude had mindblasting funky breath and smelly feet. *Gross. Completely cracked up on the train just talking bout the dodgey crown man.
Decided tt we should change our names, to More-ley, Humsap and Chaosenlanjiao and we come from Burma, Myanmar and Laos.
Finally we get home. Watched first Ep of Rome, loved it, had to have it. Slept through Marley and me. Woke up in the morn smoothered in Kisses from Slash. Uhh... felt so loved and adored....
Had Beef noodles for lunch. Had a really weird waiter.
Combed through Supree.
Finally went home.
5)Gymmed this morning. Had a good run, 11.0 for 1/2 an hr. Gonna increase it to 12.0 once i'm able to do constant 11.0 for an hour.
6) Had bbq (babi-q, so muslin cannot eat right? lol) at uncle Jimmys place fr lunch. Saw Alwyn and Victor, enjoyed their company interpreting dreams, talking about life and where it leads to after school.
7) Writing my EMG (human physiology) report now.
8) Craving Coffee ice-cream with honey nut cornflakes dusted with spoonfull of milo powder. i need to eat healthier. note to self: must come up with food plan
9) Blood donation tommrow.
10) I want to sleep, i've got a migrain just thinking bout anything ....



So after everything you've read, Serves me right, right?

Knew it, damn it~

Cat in the Garden

Got my new gym programme, had alex bring me through it last night. Chris has kept her promise about adding more free weights to the prog and less cardio. She only wants me to do 20mins now. But i'll comply cos by the time i'm done with all the weights, i'm beat.
Walked in to the gym bout 3mins late for my appointment at 6. Found alex standing outside the box with his hands crossed watching music on V. He turns to say, "Hello kimberly" as i walk in and looks back to the screen. I timidly walked up to him and said, "err.. Hello alex, i've got an appointment at 6, i think, sorry i'm late..." Then he looks back at me and says, "Yeah, thats right, come in..." Takes out my prog from the cabinet and says, "you can leave your stuff in here". I thought i'd actually messed up my appointment. hah. He got me there for a moment. So i undressed and bounced out to where he was standing near the weights. My prog is 3 pages long and its a two day thing. Day one's for shoulders and arms. Day two concentrates on lower body and chest. Walking to the first weight in the programme, He insists tt i should be using 20kgs for dead lifts, upward rows, bicep curls and well just all the weights i hold should be 20 for barbells and min of 5kgs for dumb bells which include, lateral raises, shoulder presses, that sort of thing. And finally for abs, i've got bicycle crunches and leg raises. I hate Bike crunches. hah. this conver quite funny and abit insulting, but since, i'm me, and i like sharing, i'll tell you
Me: i hate bike crunches.
alex: yeah? why?
me: cos its odd and everyone looks funny doing it.
alex: err... you know tt bike crunches has nothing to do with a bike right?
me: .... (thinks to myself* damn it! do i look tt dumb?)
So we get on the mat and he demonstrates how to bike-crunch and asks me to do it and 3 crunches later he says, "yeah you do look abit funny doing it..."
Thanks for the vote of confidence....
End of day 1s prog.

So we move back to the weights section for day 2. For bar bell squats i've got the 20kgs i have to lift on my shoulders again. And i was complaining to alex about how Ramon told me tt i was doing my squats wrongly and how ever since i was concious of doing squats and now i'll feel even more vulnerable if he comes and tell me my technique is wrong when i've gt a 20kg barbell on my back. alex to the rescue had me perfecting my squats. Something about pushing my hips back to a sit down position and as i go lower, i should push my knees outward and wiggle my toes. then he made me get the bar. So, I must tell you, men are usually the ones in the weight section and so the height for the barbell resting position is actually at my ear. hmm... so its either, i've got quite abit of growing to do or i've got to develop psychic abilities to get the bar to come to me. While it would be cool to have a tall strong guy by my side just so i can use his strength to bring the bar to me. Whats gonna happen when i'm in there alone? How am i supposed to get it down. well, Alex had me carrying the bar out from its craddle and putting it on the floor till i got used to the weight, after 5 times, he asked me to bring the bar over my head to rest on my shoulders to do squats. When we were done with tt, we moved on to the hack squat machine and this machine really had me worried cos i'm a very short person and so if someone who was tall like say, Lahiru were to have used it b4 me i would not be able to bring the bar down. And to make it worse, i think i've got a longer right leg cos everytime i squat, my right leg moves up to tip toe. haha. He had me doing other exercises like flyers which i call crucifixion, AB pulley and the roman chair. I quite like my new programme its very challenging and alex says i should increase my weights every 2 weeks min. All this weight lifting has got me wondering how much i'll be lifting by the end of this year. hehee.. Well, stick around and find out.


Red cross just called and i've schedueled a Blood donation on Monday at 1110. See, i'm so nice right? I should have enough frequent goodness miles to get me a free ticket to heaven now.

hmm....

Back to the skeletal muscle board.

tata...

Feeling blue

Little words,
My refusal to share.










Everyone please stay away, i don't want to use your t-shirt as tissue...

Mew

Friday came and went by. It wan't good. It was just Friday. Like every Friday, except i was home, watching the sun rise, watched it set for abit as the dark clouds rolled in bout 12plus and then it came out again and finally set. I think i spent tt whole day watching One tree hill season 5 cos I have this dumb theory tt i don't do anything on holy days.

Aunty Thresa and Uncle Jimmy invited us over to their place on Saturday for Curry mee. I love Curry me, well, its not as much as i love Tom yum mee. But you know if you're in a country where the odds of getting a good bowl of curry me is say, about, 0. This curry mee was mind blasting. I also got to eat saussage rolls, cheng teng and caramel slice. I love desserts. Despite the pain in my tummy, my gluttony always gets the best of me. You see, i'm bloated, i'm so bloated tt i look almost 3 months pregnant and one day it looked about 6months. And on Saturday, i looked about 3. After lunch, because, i kept vomiting in my mouth, i decided, i had enough! and went to see the good ole' doctor who prescribed me, Lomotil and diagnosed it as a tummy flu and casually said, no dairy (No chocolate, milk, cheese, butter). Now, at this point, i don't mind having wet stool, just as long as something is coming out and my tummy goes down. But it wasn't going down and it hurt like mad all day and pressed on through the night. Isn't it such a soldier?

Woke up, felt better and decided to head to the gym to do some weights. It was pretty alright. I was still bloated but it didn't hurt anymore (perhaps it already crossed threshold and couldn't hurt any worse than the first time). I don't really enjoy doing weights but i do it cos it's part of the programme. The pec dec machine got beat up pretty bad (it was out of order). Geoff suggested tt mr muscles might have murdered it. Oh! Geoff brought Kingston in on Sunday and he is an adorable Cavalier king charles spaniel. But he sheds so much. None the less, cute.
Went to Shireens place tt evening when my parents came home to see Slash and Bronz Chan. They got 6 weeks bigger. lol. Bronz so manja and Slash still as mummys boy as ever. Its always so good to see Shireen with or without the cats, with her time just seems to fly by and tt night we'd spent almost 10hours together and it felt like we'd only been there 2hours. It was pretty cold when we left tt morning and i didn't switch the air con on in the car so when we got to doncaster, the windows kinda fogged up and i couldn't see the road, switched on the aircon but the fog wasn't going away fast enough so i rolled the windows down (Just abit cos i'm a chicken tt some jeepers creepers dude might yank me out of the window into the night sky). It didn't take very long for me to get us home and i hadn't realised tt the window down was actually making andrea cold. haha. It was only when we got to the final traffic light of our place tt i rolled it up, looked at andrea, cos she said something odd and realised tt her jacket hood was up. Lol. we spent the whole car ride home talking and i don't know why she didn't say she was cold. haha. i just find it quite amusing.
Speaking of amusing, Earlier tt evening before we left for shireens place, my dad decides to play dad and say, "No drinking! Its Easter, booze buzz rampage." but you see, Its not drinking thou shall worry about when it comes to me.
We were driving along bell street, when i couldn't stomach driving behind this old ford. So I decided to overtake it and put it behind my rear view mirror, then i slowed down cos it was 60 street. Next i know this commodor comes up beside me and cuts into my lane, then shifts to the other, just cos i could, i was gonna... But just as i was about to accelerate, Andrea says, "mmm.. Kim, 60, okay?" potong steam.... At the next traffic light, this bozoe decides to play ass again. Grr... I think through the tinted windows he must not have realised tt i was a girl. -o- It was a really good sunday. Been a very long time since i've stayed up tt late. The last time i stayed up till 5 were days on my second trip to mas. And i've fallen in love with Coffee icecream. I have ice cream for breakfast with cereal, Its bloody unhealthy, but i'm feelin crappy so i'm doing whatever it is i can to make myself happy. It has replaced cheese cake, chocolate and cookies.
Slept till 10, woke up went to the gym made a date for a fitness assesment and complained to Alex bout the bloat and asked if or not its exercise related and thank god he said no.*phew. Anyway, i think he thinks i'm pregnant and i'm just using it as an excuse. haha. got chris as a trainner again. =)
Did my fitness assesment today. I got to play with the Bike! My oxygen intake is only average for the amount of cardio i'm doing. And my blood pressure's only 96/60 which according to her is very low. When 7weeks ago it was 73. When I weighed myself 4 weeks ago i had put on 4kgs and since i'd fallen sick i've lost 2. Body fat percentage has decreased and measurements are still the same. Getting my prog tomorrow night. Hello, Aches and pains. I haven't felt a muscleache in the longest time. I'm a sucker for tt sort of pain. heh. i remember, the first time i joined pump. I swear i suffered like mad the day after, i couldn't walk couldn't stand everything hurt and i was donating blood the day after. Needles, are horrible, i used to hate needles i'll cry at the sight of needles. i cried 2yrs ago when i had to do a blood test and so i decided to donate blood in hopes to rid the fear. After tt experience, i'd donate blood in a heart beat anyday. Just tt, my blood flow's slow, i was supposed to have about 200 in the bag by 20mins but i was only at 50. She thought she'd put the needle in wrongly and she was meddling with it while i watched. i thought it was actually pretty cool cos once the needle was in, it didn't hurt anymore. I could even squeeze a ball. I sat there for about 35mins so she could get 100 out of me which was according to her enough to give some someone (she might have thrown it away for all i know) lol.
Then, she gave me orange juice, I've always hated oranges and orange juice and now i like them just fine. I found tt I've learnt to like alot of things i've once disliked in recent years and some things tt i used to like, i simply dislike now. Maybe if i met myself 2 years ago, i'd prob hate me and if the person i was 5years ago met me, hmm.. i wonder how tt me would think of the me i am, now....

Whatever and ever

Sunshine, Rainbow, Butterflies. Melbournes been so dark cold and gloomy these past few days.

Finally, the sun has come out.

B-e-a-u-tiful Thursday afternoon. I suddenly don't feel like dying anymore. The sun is smiling down at me, the clouds are moving along, the trees are waving and the birds are minding their own business, today is my best friend.
I'm just glad tt the weekend-mid-sem break is here. Finally a breather, got to catch up on human physiology cos i got loss at skeletal muscle which was like in week 4 and we're already in week 6 doing smooth muscle. I think i crapped up my Biochem mid-sem exam. Biological functions. I know biological functions, studied it at foundation and read them just the day before. But during the exam, my mind just went blank. It was actually blank, if you put it in the spectrophotometer, it would read, 0.000, blank. And Principles of Nutrition, completely gone to the dogs. So gonna burn. How can 3 bloody subjects be so damn tough to tackle. Not to mention the 3 essays i have to complete. Urgh. Need to befriend my notes (no matter how many paper cuts i get, even if my hair falls out and i look like my nutrition lecturer, i will press on. Amen.)

I can't believe it, I'm sick again! I feel like since i got back i've just been falling in and out of a cold. Was supposed to gym last night. But the gym was so crowded and I could barely walk from the pain in my tummy. hah. Obviously i knew the gym was crowded cos i walked there. Tried to do weights, couldn't lift or pull anything. Lahiru said we should leave cos the gym smelled bad. lol. I thought tt was quite funny cos, its a gym. ppl sweat in the gym, some ppl just stink up the place with their odour more than others by doing stuff like armpit air-ing exercises, lateral raises. haha. We left and Lahiru was nice enough to offer to walk me home for fear tt i might drop dead and get eaten by ducks and my body will never be found. haha. While walking home, we were talking about mr muscles and how he'd like to interview the man. Mr Muscles is a very grumpy (prob pumped on steriods) macho man. The cross section of his muscle is at full potential and is quite easy on the eyes. When he pumps iron even men stop to oggle at his ceps. I was describing to Lahiru how i find it very difficult to work out around him cos 1.) He looks so angry all the time (I feel like i'm walking on eggshells everytime i'm around him, cos well, I dn wanna die, the man presses weigthts at the maximum of every machine and free weights...) 2.) He likes to throw his weights around when he is done with them and sometimes its startles me in a, "Hark! Who goes there!?" kinda way. lol. And all that happens nightly at 6.

Got home took a bath. Hit the sack. Mom comes in to see if or not i'm actually sleeping. So i take the opportunity to say:

Me: Mummy, i've got a headache, like pounding headache. Its not helping tt my cough is coming back and my tummy hurts (its not an i want to pang xai pain, its just painful throughout the entire axon of my abdomen, maybe like labour pain? haha.). Its painful when i pressdown and its even more painful when i release the pressure. I constantly feel cold, so i hunch my back and now, i've got a major backache. And my left ring finger and pinky hurts. how?

Mom: Stop gyming. I put oo ee on your tummy for you want?

Me: Lying sickly on the bed. mmm.. oh-teh. (she only wanna rub my tummy to check if or not my naval piercing is there. hehee. she's no cunning)

Woke up at 6 this morning cos i go to the gym in the morn except on weds. Felt better. But as i was making my way there my tummy knoted and i started breaking out in cold sweat. Got there anyway, it was better than yesterday but i found tt i couldn't lift the 10kg barbell for bicep curls. damn sad wei. I need a new gym programme. Still thinking on who i want as my trainner. Dum di dum dum...

Sharing is Caring

I read my stars for the week ahead in body and soul. I'm not really into lifeless rocks tt orbit the universe, its just tt this is damn funny when i relate it to my current situation. Chears throat* It says, "Its time to rebuild yourself and your ego. Venus moving back into your love zone is going to make that easier to do. Just when you thought your chances in romance were done, you may get a second wind, either within your current situation or with someone new. Just don't blow everything by being too earnest. For more info on what venus in your love zone will mean, call 1800thissucksass.

Now the parts tt catch my eye are, rebuild self and your ego. Lol. "Rebuild self", I'd take as gyming so restructuring my body. As for ego. hah. After what i last heard about myself, i must admit my ego did take quite a boo boo. Which I've kissed, rubbed and its now on its path to recovery.
My love zone is fine! Its just the way I like it, freedom with no restrictions. Its Not unfortunate tt the only relationship i have besides friends and family is the gym and my ever growing school work load.

Brace yourself....

Now talking bout me thinking tt my chances with romance were done, I got a second wind! The msg sent today, from the blast from my past. ta-dah...

Does tt mean my forcast for the week is done? Have you already predicted what it is tt was coming my way? Is this it? Him? Again? His persistance is sweet. But its kuku. Why is it the kuku ones tt are so persistant in professing thier undying love.

Its cruel. I feel doomed. its been almost a year. Do you know how it feels to have to keep looking over your shoulder as you walk home. I freeze when i see a shape tt looks like his coming toward me, i look down on th ground and i feel like crying, i want to run but there is no where i can go tt he will not eventually find me. Or the quickening of your heart as you hear heavy footsteps and deep breathing coming up fast from behind you. Everytime someone says i love you, do you know how hard i try not to cringe, think of a joke, laugh it off and kick myself about the mess i'm in. Do you know how hard it is for me to trust someone with my heart which i will give wholeheartedly when i say, i love you too.

Don't u dare think, i refuse to give love a chance. i gave it a chance, a fucking gain tt was.

Maybe its time to have a very nice long chat with the big man up there.
Friday?
Picnic?
Fish and bread?
You bring the blanket?
and i'll bring the kite?
if i apologise for cracking jokes at you and using you for punch lines..

Can i have someone new? There is no one in this life that i want to repeat. i must admit, I like falling in love better than i like keeping it together. Wrong to care too much. Mad to love so hard and fiercely. Where do you do you draw the line?
i promise tt if you send me an angel, i'm gonna guard his beautiful heart with my life, cos his happiness is all tt will matter to me.

Cold.

Woke up at 530. Got a pretty messed up body clock. Snoozed around in bed till bout 545, got up did the stuff you do in the morning, had an orange for breakfast. Left the house bout 6 for the gym. I think mom and dad were late for work cos well i had breakfast alone. Its very sad to eat alone, i mean if i could i'd rather not makes me feel like i have no one but my lonesome self (which i will have until the day i die, unless i find a bf of which i will trick in to making my spouse. All for my amusement of not having to watch the tv, eat or sleep alone. hehee). Stepped out of the house and i swear i was so close to stepping back in, shutting the door getting back into bed and hiding under the covers till the next summer. It was freezing! 9' by the way. Anyway, I decided the brave the cold and get myself to the gym, by the time i got there my calf muscles and fingers were numb from the cold and i couldn't feel the tip of my nose. lol. Cos i couldnt feel it and i didn't have a mirror to tell me if my nose was still there i waited for a response from the lady at the front desk. If her face twisted in horror, i know i must have mj-ed out. Okay, so she didn't and i've still got my nose. hurray!

Decided tt i would do my stepper today cos, i like it, well better than i like the cross-trainer. I would have run but, i didn't wear my tights today and my shrorts likes to pick-a-boo my panties at unsuspecting weight doing-folk who might get a heart attack and die. See, in the morning alot of oldies in the gym. haha.

It was a pretty good morninf until the black out. It was quite funny, all the machines except the treadmill were working so the ppl who were on it had to restart. hah. At the first black out i cud hear alex cuss, shit. Then the lights came back on and 15mins later it blacked out again, then i heard a whispered, fuck. I heard stomping and door banging from behind me and then this lady comes in for a fitness assesment and just as she walks toward the box, the lights went out again and i hear, awesome. Welcome to Australia, mate.

I think god hates me. Cos just as i left the gym it started to rain. It was cold and i was all wet by the time i got home. Today is the first time in a long time tt i've got 3 layers of clothes on plus a jacket and i dind't even peel a layer off. Had Biochem at 9. Was supposed to meet Lahiru at 10 so we cud go to Northland and he cud get his Brow pierced. Received a message bout 915 tt read "I love you alot." Now, i'm the sort of person tt expected a msg to have come from Lahiru cos we were supposed to meet, so i didn't bother looking at the name. But the msg came from somebody else, was about the reply the msg when i recoginzed the number belonged to Arabian-night. Shocker. Swear i sat straight and paid attention throughout the remainder of the lecture cos Arabian night was sitting 3 rows up behind me.

When lecture ended, i scooted out of the class like curry in a hurry, met Lahiru outside the library and we made our way to Northland. Was supposed to be back in school by 12 for Nutrition lecture but the lady before us was taking a long time getting waxed so we kinda waited for half an hour only to be done at 1215, he got his piercing, looks great on him, very bad ass and we missed Nutrition. oh well, i guess it doesn't really make a diff, the lecturer has special powers everytime she talks christy and linh fall asleep. haha. Actually its not just christy and linh, other ppl just end up lying on the table like a plague hit and everyone dropped like flies. hahaha. I know of ppl who lok like they're busy taking notes but if you inch in and take a closer look they're actually making a shopping list. haha. No. No. Not refering to myself. I'm always too busy copying down the lecture slides from linh cos of my refusal to print em. Save the trees, Save the planet. Okay, okay, the worse i've done is plan Lahirus diet programme during her lecture but, so what! Its Principles of Nutrition, the class and her face inspires me to not want to look like her and save fat and skinny people. =)



Off to the gym again.



ta ta.

Warning: Emo.

Time change! Woke up at 8.30 this morning. Day dreamed abit about the yum cha i was gonna have today =), got up, got dressed, sat in the hall had a plum for breakfast. Mom comes out of her room and says,"Kim, its only 9, i haven't changed the time, gym opens at 10am on Sat right? Are you leaving already?" lol. I know i'm blur, I know i'm very bad with time, i know i'm alot of un-nice things. But today, i woke up early cos of the one hour set back it would have actually been 10 already. Read the news papers like i do, i only read the papers on the weekends cos tts the only time they are purchased. Waited for andrea to get dressed and have her milo.

Was gona drive to the gym but daddy decided to be knn and say, "Dont take the car, i might have errands to run" "Like what errands, daddy?"

"I might have to pick her up"

I was taken back! He was gonna pick tt ungreatful cheating cow up and make me walk. whadafuk!! I'm not an unreasonable person, I believe tt if you take the effort to help yourself (eg. by taking the innitiative to call the car rental service yourself. But No! she had to say, "Oh Calvin do you have a landline, can call for me?") , i'd be cool to help you out in your time of need (eg. If she can't get a rented car, I'd have said, "fine, take the car dad. Scratch tt, i'll pick her up myself."). Hell. I'd even fight tooth and nail till i persuade whoever it is i have to and get you what i want. But this woman! Of all women in the world! What makes her so bloody special! Worse, in comparison to me! No, I'm not the jealous daughter. I know i'm not perfect and i shouldn't judge. I'm not sore about not being able to drive. i just don't understand why he's treating her so nicely. Who am i to complain about who deserves. It's just circumstances, facts everything put together and between the lines, if you knew what i knew you'd prob feel the same way too.

"why? Let her take the train la. Convinient what, preston only."

"No. No. you walk or you don't go...its sunday ... take a break .... come home late ... lunch at 1pm ... reservation, can't be late... "



Note to self: Because u never know what the day has installed, should just wake up sulking so then if the day sucks ass, it was already ass from the beginning, no change...



Walked to the gym with Andrea. It was very in and Out. Got home, took a bath. Reached gold leaf bout 1pm. And they were Half an hour late. Cherry on top the icing of cake! I was hungry. I played out the conversation when she came, figured she'd say, "Hi, i'm so sorry we're late..." Hah. Seriously, can you ever be so sorry you're late? Late, nevermind. She delivered the apology, smiling... Rip my head off, and shit down my throat while you're at it, why don't you. I don't like ppl who are late it shows alot about a persons cannot-be-bothered-ness. So if you're reading this and you're always late, "stop it!"



The only great thing today was this sweet japanese lady who invited andrea and i to Japan to live with her over summer. Yippie-ka-yeh. December 2010, Japan, here we come. Emily, Interested?



How funny it is, tt i'm fulfiling all the promises that u made and those i agreed to, keeping yours and mine in my heart - which you once wore on ur sleeve cos i couldn't see yours. I drifted into it, didn't have a stronger reason not to. Time heals wounds, seals memories, dims the pain and whatever. I don't expect much now. Let the gap that didn't use to be there close and give me back my picture perfect life.

Just the way it is.

I love lazy weekends.
Wake up at 9, at the gym by 10, exercise till 2. Come home have lunch.

Then spend the rest of the day sipping a hot cup of tea, watching re-runs of supernatural, One tree hill or Charmed and occasionally renting new released DVDs. I love the feeling of being in the company of my parents, feels like i seldom see them these days. On weekdays, we have breakfast together at 6, they go to work i head to the gym, I finish school at 6 and get busy with assignments. They come home at 7, have dinner, watch a little television and head to bed by 9. Its sad tt we almost never have dinner together anymore, I miss tellybubbies dinner time bullshit. Guess i must be a daddies girl at heart, afterall.

Borrowed Quantum of Solace and Australia from blockbuster today cos dada has been asking us if we're gonna borrow DVDs, kept me up last night, i knew it was all about wanting to watch 007 and granny pie has been itching to watch Australia since it came out but never found the time (haha, i wonder how tt happened, she's home all day. hmm...). I'd bet she'd either end of sleeping through the movie cos its so long or dim-wittedly not understand it. hah. i thought the movie was painfully long. I thought it was all over when they drove the big fat cheeky bulls to the metal box. But the i realised, Noo... Its a WWII movie and the Japs hadn't Bombed em Aussies, had to be another hour more to end point. ...

I also love an occasional textat various time of the day telling me sweet nothings and although i don't always reply, i appreciate the thought. hah. If I told you the reason why you must promise to forgive my idiotic-ness and to continue to send me messages, okay? Solemly swear to yourself now. Alright, here goes: Its cold and i don't want to take my hands out from under the blanket. I know! I know! i'm assholic, i'm sorry, its just tt it takes awhile to warm my fingers up so, i'd rather not, sorry uh.

This too shall pass...

In the Library

Supposed to be doing research for protein-Ligand interactions due, soon. But my heads not in the game so, i'm gonna entertain you with some random stuff in my life thus far.

Cookies and cream Cheese Cake vomit on the Carpet is by far one of the most horrible events, not only did it stink up the room, the carpets stained and Casper can't stop rubbing himself on the carpet. hah. To top tt, Molly had to get down on all fours to scrub it up at 5 in the morning. And it was all due to one bad sushi. I think my relationship with sushi has finally come to an end. Its sad you know, it was convinient and yummy. Damn.

Okay okay, this one will really gross you out. One Summer night, there i was tucked in, trying to fall alseep and there was this Milo dinosaur sized fly buzzing around at my ear. I knew it was large cos when the light from my phone came on form an incoming message, the damn thing attracted to the light landed on the phone and boy! was it big. Must have come from Chernobyl accident. haha. And i decided tt it had to die. Switched on the light, waited for it to land and whacked it with the tissue box. It died and started to lay maggots on the spot. There they were these white wriggly things, just wriggling... (it takes alot to gross me out but this actually made me feel queasy, it was horrible) And because they were so tiny i had to pick them up with my bear hands (fingers rather). Do flies give birth to life young? Since when?!!

This incident is one tt lives up to the phase, "Careful what you wish for". Walking home from the gym one Wednesday morning. And there was a flock of birds hovering at the side of the road in front of our place (i thought they went mad, bird flu? haha). As i got closer, I saw it, a Brown snake, right infront of our lawn! Slithering toward the road. I was so excited! I was actually super excited, I'd never since a snake tt was not in a glass tank. So walked as quickly as i could toward the main door to wake andrea up to share this snake moment with me. But just as i was opening the door this Car drives by, real fast and I hear bones crunching. Bottom line, The snake was road kill. I think it suffered abit (No, i didn't ask it), looked tt way cos it was twisting and trying to get away, i remember it vibrating then it went limp (No, I didn't touch or poke it, i watched a nice old man, pick it up with two sticks and dump its limp body in some high grass, never walking by there again). Too bad for the snake but on the bright side, i had one wish fulfilled this year and if the snake was coming toward our place, Casper might have been Lunch. So i guess the car did us a favour. If worse came to worse and the snake hadn't died, i would have run it over myself. (kidding) I have this facination for snakes, i'd have most prob end up asking my parents if i could keep it as a pet. If they said no, I'd have given it to MacVet. =)

Lahirus here with me in the lib and We're supposed to be in the Gym. hah. But its raining heavily and i don't want to reach the gym wet and cold. I don't like getting wet and i hate the cold, it cramps my muscles. Todays programme's squats and lunges, press, pec dec, tricep kick backs, some tricep pully thing, crunches and cardio. I love cardio. When i came back from Sg, I used to run 25km a day which was approx 2hours on the tready. I used to find weird bruises on my feet (mom says i like to mutilate my feet. haha) and it was painful to walk, but it was alright to run. Then i fell sick and haha this is another wish come true, I had a cough tt lasted for nearly 6 weeks and i swear it was not cool. I'd wake up in the middle of the night and i just could not breathe. Sometimes it was so bad, i felt like if i died gasping for air, i'd die consciously watching myself, die. I haven't coughed in awhile but i still wake up gasping for air. And if i could do it again, I'd pick coughing to looking like michael jackson, anyday. So these days, i've found a new object of affection and tt is the Isotrack climbing system and i do a thousand floors a day.

BetI'm your inspiration now eh?

Guess i'd better get going.

ta ta

Scratched

Dear Readers,

I know, i'm 3years late (but who's counting anyway).

I'm also aware that i do not come online as often as i should to keep to contact with friends and family. So, I guess this is the best way to let you know how i'm doing and what i'm up to without a long ass two way conversation.

Okay, okay, I hear tt you're all just itching for me to tell you what i've been up to. Since Uni started I've been dutifully attenting my lectures, tutes and practical classes, trying hard to meet assignment deadlines, gyming religiously and have no time for anything else. My life is pretty boring and i like it this way, i'm willing to give up fun till i reach my goals. Which are namely to get my gym trainning cert, a degree so i can go on to do honours and to 90' leftside park. haha. I think i'm left-side impaired. hmm... Yes, I have also developed a craving for chocolate hot cross buns, i think it must be an easter phase.

Starting to feel like 24hours a day is not enough. Time is flying me by and i dn know what it is i've been so busy doing. One day rolls into the next and the next thing i know, a week has gone by. I guess this was what they ment when they said, "your 20s are gonna fly you by.." Well anymore flying by and i'm gonna be an extinct dried up prune.

And if i sit here any longer, i'm gonna end up wearing coca cola bottle thick specs.

Till my next post, don't forget to drink lots of water, spend time reading good books and practise good personal hygiene.