Time change! Woke up at 8.30 this morning. Day dreamed abit about the yum cha i was gonna have today =), got up, got dressed, sat in the hall had a plum for breakfast. Mom comes out of her room and says,"Kim, its only 9, i haven't changed the time, gym opens at 10am on Sat right? Are you leaving already?" lol. I know i'm blur, I know i'm very bad with time, i know i'm alot of un-nice things. But today, i woke up early cos of the one hour set back it would have actually been 10 already. Read the news papers like i do, i only read the papers on the weekends cos tts the only time they are purchased. Waited for andrea to get dressed and have her milo.
Was gona drive to the gym but daddy decided to be knn and say, "Dont take the car, i might have errands to run" "Like what errands, daddy?"
"I might have to pick her up"
I was taken back! He was gonna pick tt ungreatful cheating cow up and make me walk. whadafuk!! I'm not an unreasonable person, I believe tt if you take the effort to help yourself (eg. by taking the innitiative to call the car rental service yourself. But No! she had to say, "Oh Calvin do you have a landline, can call for me?") , i'd be cool to help you out in your time of need (eg. If she can't get a rented car, I'd have said, "fine, take the car dad. Scratch tt, i'll pick her up myself."). Hell. I'd even fight tooth and nail till i persuade whoever it is i have to and get you what i want. But this woman! Of all women in the world! What makes her so bloody special! Worse, in comparison to me! No, I'm not the jealous daughter. I know i'm not perfect and i shouldn't judge. I'm not sore about not being able to drive. i just don't understand why he's treating her so nicely. Who am i to complain about who deserves. It's just circumstances, facts everything put together and between the lines, if you knew what i knew you'd prob feel the same way too.
"why? Let her take the train la. Convinient what, preston only."
"No. No. you walk or you don't go...its sunday ... take a break .... come home late ... lunch at 1pm ... reservation, can't be late... "
Note to self: Because u never know what the day has installed, should just wake up sulking so then if the day sucks ass, it was already ass from the beginning, no change...
Walked to the gym with Andrea. It was very in and Out. Got home, took a bath. Reached gold leaf bout 1pm. And they were Half an hour late. Cherry on top the icing of cake! I was hungry. I played out the conversation when she came, figured she'd say, "Hi, i'm so sorry we're late..." Hah. Seriously, can you ever be so sorry you're late? Late, nevermind. She delivered the apology, smiling... Rip my head off, and shit down my throat while you're at it, why don't you. I don't like ppl who are late it shows alot about a persons cannot-be-bothered-ness. So if you're reading this and you're always late, "stop it!"
The only great thing today was this sweet japanese lady who invited andrea and i to Japan to live with her over summer. Yippie-ka-yeh. December 2010, Japan, here we come. Emily, Interested?
How funny it is, tt i'm fulfiling all the promises that u made and those i agreed to, keeping yours and mine in my heart - which you once wore on ur sleeve cos i couldn't see yours. I drifted into it, didn't have a stronger reason not to. Time heals wounds, seals memories, dims the pain and whatever. I don't expect much now. Let the gap that didn't use to be there close and give me back my picture perfect life.
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