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I read my stars for the week ahead in body and soul. I'm not really into lifeless rocks tt orbit the universe, its just tt this is damn funny when i relate it to my current situation. Chears throat* It says, "Its time to rebuild yourself and your ego. Venus moving back into your love zone is going to make that easier to do. Just when you thought your chances in romance were done, you may get a second wind, either within your current situation or with someone new. Just don't blow everything by being too earnest. For more info on what venus in your love zone will mean, call 1800thissucksass.

Now the parts tt catch my eye are, rebuild self and your ego. Lol. "Rebuild self", I'd take as gyming so restructuring my body. As for ego. hah. After what i last heard about myself, i must admit my ego did take quite a boo boo. Which I've kissed, rubbed and its now on its path to recovery.
My love zone is fine! Its just the way I like it, freedom with no restrictions. Its Not unfortunate tt the only relationship i have besides friends and family is the gym and my ever growing school work load.

Brace yourself....

Now talking bout me thinking tt my chances with romance were done, I got a second wind! The msg sent today, from the blast from my past. ta-dah...

Does tt mean my forcast for the week is done? Have you already predicted what it is tt was coming my way? Is this it? Him? Again? His persistance is sweet. But its kuku. Why is it the kuku ones tt are so persistant in professing thier undying love.

Its cruel. I feel doomed. its been almost a year. Do you know how it feels to have to keep looking over your shoulder as you walk home. I freeze when i see a shape tt looks like his coming toward me, i look down on th ground and i feel like crying, i want to run but there is no where i can go tt he will not eventually find me. Or the quickening of your heart as you hear heavy footsteps and deep breathing coming up fast from behind you. Everytime someone says i love you, do you know how hard i try not to cringe, think of a joke, laugh it off and kick myself about the mess i'm in. Do you know how hard it is for me to trust someone with my heart which i will give wholeheartedly when i say, i love you too.

Don't u dare think, i refuse to give love a chance. i gave it a chance, a fucking gain tt was.

Maybe its time to have a very nice long chat with the big man up there.
Friday?
Picnic?
Fish and bread?
You bring the blanket?
and i'll bring the kite?
if i apologise for cracking jokes at you and using you for punch lines..

Can i have someone new? There is no one in this life that i want to repeat. i must admit, I like falling in love better than i like keeping it together. Wrong to care too much. Mad to love so hard and fiercely. Where do you do you draw the line?
i promise tt if you send me an angel, i'm gonna guard his beautiful heart with my life, cos his happiness is all tt will matter to me.